Friends

I lament the loss of my friends from Highschool. I left them behind and a part of me is trapped back there in time. I cant imagine any of them now with families, careers, new homes with sprinkler systems. I'm stuck there and I cant get out of the mud. I basse how I feel about myself on what I lost, whats back there and it haunts me. I close off new friendships or dont even try. I harbor anger towards the friends who have moved on from me. How can you not care about my life now? How can you not call me back, or email, or write, or visit? We said we'd be friends forever. We said we'd be at eachothers weddings. I thought our children would grow up together and you would be there for me still. I guess I was wrong and now I need to move on. Why do I efen bother to care? Why does it hurt still after so many years?

I got the job!!!!

Family reminds you of you

It's just a peice of furnature in Dad's new condo but it was the same furnature I sat at whe I was young, discovering the world. My matchbox cars, my crayons, my transformers all danced across these functional fixtures. My wife thinks I'm stupid and need to grow up. But a part of me will always be reminded of where I hid when playing hide and seek, or where the family cat that we put to sleep would always curl up. And I walk into the room and they all smile at me. Even though they're interlaced with new trinkets like someone shuffled my life like a deck of cards. And I see the things that were Mom's that she wanted so badly and she used to define who she is and I wonder why he has them? But I guess I need to grow up...l

Gaudy Harness

So I'm clamming yesterday and everyone is talking about a prom aquaduct panty raid for the good old gaudy harness. I of course dont have one and have some time to burn. I rush on out there, switch to BST/THF and after some map soul searching find myself killing fomor beastmasters. Two kills, two drops later I'm a happy man. Not that I needed it really because I don't really play it all that much any more but it was a lot of fun. I died at the end and now I'm 23 exp from the next level but I couldn't be happier. I was thinking how I like Halo for how quick you can play a match, but FFXI is really good for doing things with friends. When you can affect something for the betterment of someone else, thats a good feeling. People putting it out there risking. You dont find that many places these days and it feels good when you can help.

Clair Bennet's voice reflects a combination of Madonna's ''Like a prayer'' and Sarah McLaughlin's ''Last to know''

Head and Shoulders

Last night my wife fell asleep with her head on my shoulder while watching TV. It was very touching and reminded me of how we will grow old together.

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testing to see if i can send blog updates from my phone via email.... im hoping this will work so im not limited to 145 characters a post, because that would limit the usefulness of web posting...

I walked into the MCC today and was reminded of one of the last days of the 10A mission where we all watched the ISS fly overhead